I want to get my oomph back!

4th May 2018

A four-day weekend is approaching!

Tiles are advancing up
the walls slowly...

I opened a letter from the consultant this morning and it took the wind out of my sails somewhat. I had the horrible MRI only two days ago and I had brunch with some new MSers yesterday and had a conversation about someone else's breast cancer experience. Even that sounds like less than mine has been and she has had surgery... The thing that hit me today was the grouping of words and 'high grade' DCIS stuck out. It looks like they caught it early but I don't have months or years to decide to do something. I think I will go back to be told its happening as soon as it can be.
And all this while the government plays catchup with the hundreds of thousands of ladies the NHS has failed to contact in the last couple of years...
I have lots of jobs in the house to finish, lots of bulbs and plants to get planting, and I just feel empty and exhausted before I even start. Now is not the time to have an MS relapse! But I can't walk into any room at the moment and find 'tidy' or 'calm', its a tip everywhere!
The dishwasher is beeping at me and I feel like shouting at it... Ken Bruce is burbling on the radio and I don't want to hear it. Pity party in full swing!
And it's not raining, the sun's out and I could go and get dirty in the soil, and nothing wants to move. Oh dear.

PS I tiled a couple of rows YAY Me!

We went out to vote yesterday.
Excuse for us to eat cake!